I was about to write my feelings last night, but I was so tired and didn’t want to do it like that.
I want to take the time to express my feelings openly and sincerely with someone who has put my world upside down in a good way.
The last 5 months, my life has changed gradually it came from completely dark to bright light.
The most beautiful sunshine has come to me and my whole life changed.
Everything started last year, he asked me if he can text to me and I said no. It was a little funny because I told him I was married and much older than him but he insisted. He saw the deep sadness in my eyes and he wasn’t wrong my soul was lost and sad.
We started texting every week, every other day, every day, every hour until we couldn’t stop texting at all, days and nights even though we have different timing. We live on the other side of the world to each other. But we always find the way.
I always think there is a reason for everything in this world. He came to me because I needed to be loved and heard. I know he found me and he insisted because he saw something in me that he only could see.
I feel something special for you my love, I feel alive when I think about you and I am crying while I´m writing this letter. I am afraid too, I am afraid of too many things but the most scary thing is to lose you. We all know we have to leave this world some day but I am not prepared to lose you.
I know I have a life already and it makes things complicated sometimes but you are so good to me and you understand me. You love me and I know you got through so many things that broke you but I´m trying to paste all the pieces of your soul that were broken and I think I’m already doing it.
I want you to know that I can be sad, mad, upset, angry and all but I never, ever gonna leave you and I want you to believe my words and don´t take my anger as a sign to leave you because I will never do it.
Forgive me for my fears, anxiety, doubts I was never be like that in my whole life, this is new to me. I want you to know that. I suffered a lot but never experienced such a feeling my sun. I don´t cry for nobody, I don´t cry at all and look at me now. I can express myself with you and that is something that I want to live everyday only with you by my side.
I LOVE YOU…